new life
so here I am, eating my Nestle strawberry yoghurt, thinking what was I suppose to blog on. it was just a minute ago when I felt I had soo much to say. oh well. let's begin with my new life now and how I feel about it.
I'm now in SEGi College subang. you know, the one right next to Summit in case you're not too familiar with it. yeah. when everyone's either in Taylor's or in Sunway(if it's not Taylor's). oh well, its cool. maybe it's part of my life learning process to make me more independant without anyone I know there.
so im trying to be contented in this new life, but just not so yet. I am college sick right now. I mean, there's so much to think about when you're in college now. And, i truly miss the people I dearly love. And, I do miss school. no wait, not school. the people in it. yeah. I am only appreciating school now, now when Im not there anymore. but then again, we all just have to go through this time of our lives. so here I am, trying my best to stay positive about everything. and honestly, i'm pretty afraid to be alone even though I made a few friends over here. the feeling isnt the same.
Ive been thinking so much lately, about him and all.
How do I not recall memories anymore.
How do I not feel unsatisfied.
How can I just, make it all dissappear. or do I not want it to dissappear..
How can I just let it all go.
How can I let myself feel painless.
How do I stop missing him...
it keeps happening. i probably wanted all these. i probably just didnt want to forget.
"the hardest thing to go through, is not having noone to understand you, but to understand yourself". and that's partly very true. I never understood myself. I can never understand me. I would like to trade a day of my life to be someone else. just once, to feel how does it feel to be different than me. oh, well...
hahah. i guess i should lighten up a bit now :) the post is a little emo. anyway, I think I should get going. so...
Happy Chinese New Year to all of you out there! may you have a blissful 2009.
I'm now in SEGi College subang. you know, the one right next to Summit in case you're not too familiar with it. yeah. when everyone's either in Taylor's or in Sunway(if it's not Taylor's). oh well, its cool. maybe it's part of my life learning process to make me more independant without anyone I know there.
so im trying to be contented in this new life, but just not so yet. I am college sick right now. I mean, there's so much to think about when you're in college now. And, i truly miss the people I dearly love. And, I do miss school. no wait, not school. the people in it. yeah. I am only appreciating school now, now when Im not there anymore. but then again, we all just have to go through this time of our lives. so here I am, trying my best to stay positive about everything. and honestly, i'm pretty afraid to be alone even though I made a few friends over here. the feeling isnt the same.
Ive been thinking so much lately, about him and all.
How do I not recall memories anymore.
How do I not feel unsatisfied.
How can I just, make it all dissappear. or do I not want it to dissappear..
How can I just let it all go.
How can I let myself feel painless.
How do I stop missing him...
it keeps happening. i probably wanted all these. i probably just didnt want to forget.
"the hardest thing to go through, is not having noone to understand you, but to understand yourself". and that's partly very true. I never understood myself. I can never understand me. I would like to trade a day of my life to be someone else. just once, to feel how does it feel to be different than me. oh, well...
hahah. i guess i should lighten up a bit now :) the post is a little emo. anyway, I think I should get going. so...
Happy Chinese New Year to all of you out there! may you have a blissful 2009.
lotsa loves
blurgirl.
posted by Zen at
10:23 PM
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