Here comes!

oh my. I did not realise that my previous post was so emo.

anyway, anywayyy. SPM is OVER. yes, for good. well Im not quite satisfied cause I felt like I wasnt doing my really best. OH WELL. it's over, anyway :) so, time to enjoy now!

I dont really know how to describe how I feel right now. its kinda, mixed. relieve, anxious, excited, sad. Relieve obviously not so stress(for now) Anxious cause I will be learning to drive and maybe work but I dont feel much for that. Excited...wait I dont know this one. We'll come back to that. Sad... Im gonna miss it all, Im gonna miss the memories. thats alot to elaborate here though, but Ill elaborate another day :)

I wanna pamper myself. Its been quite some time. I mean not really pamper mysef. I just wanna shop til I drop but Ive a strong feeling thats not gonna happen cos I never end up spending much. but YES I want to.

I NEED to work. not too soon but yes, I do think I should work. to keep myself occupied. keep myself busy. so I dont waste my time daydreaming at home. and Ill be too tired at night to be having many things in my mind before I sleep.

by the way, my sister came back from UK! it's nice to have a back, really. its been so different having her back here. oh, I haven mentioned. she applied for a working holiday visa. some 2 years visa which you can work and holiday there. and she bought nice dresses! pretty dresses! yeah I love them as much as she does. she's missing UK like a whole lot. I do too even though I wasn there.

I forgot how to end a post. oh well, thats bout it for now :) enjoy the holidays people!

blurgirl.

Time hates me.

Time hates me for I keep wasting Time.

so now, I'm lack of Time. mind me if I start getting frustrated or if I might start cursing.

nothing can be as true as that. i wasted more than enough of Time. taking now as an example already for blogging when I'm supposed to be studying my dear old subject which I never got an A before for my whole entire life... Sejarah. AND to the other science subjects that I just passed for my trials. JUST PASSED. what if i JUST PASSED or get just a C for those? and its not only one subject, practically all are honestly not good at all. and dont try to tell me that it's okay. it is NOT OKAY. and I am trying to do what I can, but I still have that plain laziness that still lives in me unfortunately, at this TIME?? oh, GOD.

I uh, just need to let go a little stress over here before I start studying with my heavy eyes.
so what have I been doing? okay, I'm getting sleepier and I think I'm gonna stop somewhere here. Time oh Time, I need you like, desperately... Then I can do so much more.

OH RIGHT. now mum just came in my room and read this and said "what? wasting time? lagi wasting time..." yeah, THANK YOU. whatever. just let me get the shit out here first would you.

nah, no one will understand how shitty I feel right now. I dont understand myself either anyway. not only cause of studies, on other things that involves Time.

this will be it for now. I'm going because I'm not gonna waste anymore precious Time.

blurgirl.